Our final goodbye

Today

offering you loving kindness

I realised

you were no longer

the ‘difficult’ person because

there was no emotional charge

in thinking of you.

The emotional lens through which

I was viewing our relationship

has fallen away

and I now accept

there is no relationship.

I don’t know what makes you happy,

or sad, or angry, or joyful.

I have no idea

how you spend your time

or what delights you.

Even the letting go 

of any idea of a relationship

no longer makes me feel sad.

The person I wanted doesn’t exist and

the person you are means

no more to me than any

stranger I pass on the street.

I wish you happiness, joy and wellbeing

in the same way I wish 

for all beings in the world.

The emotional ties that

once bound us together

are undone at last,

I am free to move on

thinking of you with 

no more regret or longing.

As I write

there is a part of me

wanting to cry,

to hold on.

Hold on to what?

To a distorted image of someone

who was once 

part of my life and

is no more.

Holding on would be to grasp

at empty air and

try to create something substantial

out of the wind. 

I have learned to let go

to accept.

This is our final goodbye.

© 26 Apr 14